Saturday, May 31, 2008

a bit of honesty...

sorry about the lack of pictures, more to come soon!

On to the honesty. Sometimes we go through a series of rough patches in life, and we feel alone. Nobody ever wants to talk about their rough patches, esp if it's something that makes us feel like a failure, so we all just silently cope and feel alone. But truth be told, we all go through hard times in some capacity or another, so guess what? I'm going to TALK about it. I'm going to share what we are going through.

We are losing our house. It's going to be foreclosed on and we'll have to move this winter. It was a long road that brought us to this point, and we didn't give it up without a fight. My husband and I bought this house about 5 years ago. At that time we had three boys, and both worked full time at high paying jobs. Months after we moved in, I became pregnant with our twins, Mya and Stella. I was off work and in and out of the hospital (as well as getting IV's at home) for my entire pregnancy. It ended with an ambulance ride to the hospital and our twins were born 14 weeks early. They fought to live for 6 months, Stella won the battle and came home...Mya did not. She died at 6 months and 4 days of age. During their hospitalization I had to quit my job, and my husband was laid off from his. Finances were a struggle. We were also struck by a city bus that ran a red light, and our only vehicle was totaled. Thankfully no one was severely injured, but the payout on the vehicle was much less than we owed, and the city's insurance only gave us $250.

My husband quit school and got a job as a bartender to make ends meet. Recently he was employed as a manager at a bar and restaurant, we needed a job with insurance, but he's taken a pay cut. We also had another baby (the last one), little Ty. We have been struggling to get my husband back in school, but just can't find the time or money to do it. So, that's where we are today. 3 months behind on our house payment, and in the early stages of foreclosure. I know our story is not written yet, and I have beautiful hope that things will turn around, but it breaks my heart all the same. We are putting our faith in my photography business and our own perseverence, as well as God, and we hope and pray that good will come of this. If someone else reads this and is struggling, just know you're not alone, you're not a failure, and there are people who will listen to your story.


Sarah and Jack said...

:-( This is my first visit here, so we don't know each other very well yet, but I wanted to let you know that your positive attitude is inspiring. That's a lot of stuff to wade through in a short period of time.

Amy J said...

thank you for the kind words. :) my husband said tonight, "the kids will still say I love you, no matter where we live", and that's all that matters.

gonzomama said...

oh, good husband!
This is also my first visit to your blog and I have to say that you are not alone in your worries and troubles. It's nice to see your openness with such difficult subjects. You did it very gracefully.

Also, in regards to my knitting - I feel the same way about your sewing ability, but I'm trying (sporadically).

Brambleberry said...

This is my first visit *here* too. (I went and read all you had written since Jan!)

I think you're fabulous. I KNOW that you guys will come out of this with a clean slate, a fresh of those {sucky} "character building" experiences.

I also think it's fabulous that you are being real. Speaking truth. I am certain that other's will be blessed by your honesty.

The Coopers said...

We'll add me to the list as first timers here... although my story is much like yours! Would love to share more with you if you would like to email me sometime. God works in mysterious ways and knows what lies ahead and all I can say is "It's all good!" Thanks for being honest and sharing, kids really don't care where they live as long as it's with YOU!!